[yuri being so nonchalant about it doesn't help flynn do the same. he can't do the same. he might not have done the pushing, but not doing the saving feels just as bad. a knight, a commandant, should be capable of rescuing at least a single person. he failed. he's failed so much. it causes further doubt about his qualifications as commandant to bubble up. those thoughts get suppressed immediately. now isn't the time.
his head snaps over to yuri, his expression as somber as before.]
But still! I was right there, I should have been able to do something...
[anything.... he trails off before sighing and frowning at the floor again. part of him wants to argue the point further, but if yuri doesn't want to talk about it any more then is it really fair to press the subject? it can't be a pleasant memory for the other man, what he recalls, anyway. bad as flynn feels about what happened, he won't push the subject any further. that's the least he can do. agreeing to end the conversation doesn't keep him from repeating what was said moments ago. nothing more on the subject will be said, but repeating this feels necessary.]
I'm sorry.
[the honesty, as well as guilt, come across loud and clear in those words. he really does blame himself for what happened. maybe he didn't have a hand in how it played out, but maybe that was part of the problem.]
no subject
his head snaps over to yuri, his expression as somber as before.]
But still! I was right there, I should have been able to do something...
[anything.... he trails off before sighing and frowning at the floor again. part of him wants to argue the point further, but if yuri doesn't want to talk about it any more then is it really fair to press the subject? it can't be a pleasant memory for the other man, what he recalls, anyway. bad as flynn feels about what happened, he won't push the subject any further. that's the least he can do. agreeing to end the conversation doesn't keep him from repeating what was said moments ago. nothing more on the subject will be said, but repeating this feels necessary.]
I'm sorry.
[the honesty, as well as guilt, come across loud and clear in those words. he really does blame himself for what happened. maybe he didn't have a hand in how it played out, but maybe that was part of the problem.]