I know…I know. [And he does know. He knows everybody comes back, he's spoken with a few of the guys who died on the raid and have come back. Logically, of course he knows they all come back. It's hard to pull himself back into that frame of mind though, especially when all this has done is kick him back to months ago to the night of the expo where he'd been just as helpless and let Tadashi slip through his fingers.
Rei has a point though, and she's actually fairly smart to appeal to logic and fact than emotion. He needs both, truthfully, but right now logic is curbing him to calm down a little and really think about what's happening. When he speaks again, it's more calm.]
…I know. [It's almost funny to him that Rei's talking about patterns when this, too, is a pattern. "You have friends to support you." "Is this what Tadashi would have wanted?" "If you remember them, they aren't truly gone." He knows he'll be fine because he's already lived in a world without Tadashi. He knows he'll be okay because there are other people. It's still hard to swallow around that when it still hurts, possibly more the second time than the first. He notices the beads and blinks suddenly like he's finally back in touch with the conversation and he's half-tempted to bat at them like a cat before realizing that's not appropriate. He doesn't return the hug, but he leans in anyway because…well, she's still right.]
Sorry for…all of this. [He's more subdued and less hysterical at least, even if his eyes shift to look back at Tadashi again.] I guess I just didn't think this would happen again. What're the chances, huh?
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Rei has a point though, and she's actually fairly smart to appeal to logic and fact than emotion. He needs both, truthfully, but right now logic is curbing him to calm down a little and really think about what's happening. When he speaks again, it's more calm.]
…I know. [It's almost funny to him that Rei's talking about patterns when this, too, is a pattern. "You have friends to support you." "Is this what Tadashi would have wanted?" "If you remember them, they aren't truly gone." He knows he'll be fine because he's already lived in a world without Tadashi. He knows he'll be okay because there are other people. It's still hard to swallow around that when it still hurts, possibly more the second time than the first. He notices the beads and blinks suddenly like he's finally back in touch with the conversation and he's half-tempted to bat at them like a cat before realizing that's not appropriate. He doesn't return the hug, but he leans in anyway because…well, she's still right.]
Sorry for…all of this. [He's more subdued and less hysterical at least, even if his eyes shift to look back at Tadashi again.] I guess I just didn't think this would happen again. What're the chances, huh?