[whatever light stahn had been trying to keep at the surface is dimmed for the time being; even if leon is dropping the subject, it doesn't feel good at all.
he can't reconcile why everything feels so bad when they should have so many shades of good in it. leon is here, and though there are brief flickers of things being the same as ever between them (which is all he could ever hope for, really), they keep ending up in this awkward and painful place where the events that changed everything seem to create a wall between them.
stahn had worked so hard from the time he met leon to break that down. he'd wanted to badly for leon to stand alongside them as friends; for him to let go a little of his need to handle everything himself and rely on them. because that's what friends do. by the time they started to reach that point, it was too late, and now it feels so unattainable. it's as if leon can't see that his actions aren't meant to try and leave him behind—it's the very opposite of that in every way. but how can he even convey that, especially right now?]
Ye... yeah. [he gives a short reply, and it's obvious the wind has been taken out of his sales. it hurts him knowing that leon is hurting; it hurts him that his own grieving doesn't even seem to make sense anymore. he feels like he should be doing just that, but leon is here, tangible... and he's happy, in some way that isn't oozing out of him like normal.
dymlos remains silent, also knowing that saying much else could anger leon again. he isn't particularly fussed by the idea, but if it'll slow down their getting on the right track, it can't happen. but he knows better. so even though stahn is rendered almost speechless, dymlos doesn't bear any helpful words, keeping silent. it's the human's job to handle their matters unless they're consulted.
and as for stahn, he's ready to follow once more—though with the wind of out his sails, he's keeping his eyes square on leon's back, watching the pink of his cape swish in motion than the sights around them. maybe it's for the better in terms of keeping him focused, but it also serves as a sign of just broken the situation is right now, and how stahn's unfailing sunshine isn't so unfailing these days.]
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he can't reconcile why everything feels so bad when they should have so many shades of good in it. leon is here, and though there are brief flickers of things being the same as ever between them (which is all he could ever hope for, really), they keep ending up in this awkward and painful place where the events that changed everything seem to create a wall between them.
stahn had worked so hard from the time he met leon to break that down. he'd wanted to badly for leon to stand alongside them as friends; for him to let go a little of his need to handle everything himself and rely on them. because that's what friends do. by the time they started to reach that point, it was too late, and now it feels so unattainable. it's as if leon can't see that his actions aren't meant to try and leave him behind—it's the very opposite of that in every way. but how can he even convey that, especially right now?]
Ye... yeah. [he gives a short reply, and it's obvious the wind has been taken out of his sales. it hurts him knowing that leon is hurting; it hurts him that his own grieving doesn't even seem to make sense anymore. he feels like he should be doing just that, but leon is here, tangible... and he's happy, in some way that isn't oozing out of him like normal.
dymlos remains silent, also knowing that saying much else could anger leon again. he isn't particularly fussed by the idea, but if it'll slow down their getting on the right track, it can't happen. but he knows better. so even though stahn is rendered almost speechless, dymlos doesn't bear any helpful words, keeping silent. it's the human's job to handle their matters unless they're consulted.
and as for stahn, he's ready to follow once more—though with the wind of out his sails, he's keeping his eyes square on leon's back, watching the pink of his cape swish in motion than the sights around them. maybe it's for the better in terms of keeping him focused, but it also serves as a sign of just broken the situation is right now, and how stahn's unfailing sunshine isn't so unfailing these days.]