[Souji nods at the description, glad that Haru really does seem to understand. In a strange way, it almost feels like an honor to hear him talk about this in such clear tones, laying it down with the certainty of those who can see the invisible edges of the world. He can't help thinking of Hajime, and somehow this feels just like home.]

Some people are are just born a certain way too, right? [He closes his hands in front of him on the table, and then reaches over and decisively pushes the bottle away from him. Haru is right. It's about making choices, isn't it?] But I... I don't want to be a person who hurts people I care about. If that means I have to be a person who hurts others for their sake, that's the better alternative.

[He turns around a bit to watch Haru start to prepare the chocolate, sagging a bit where he sits.] I wondered a bit if it would make it easier to sleep too. [He's slept on his own these nights, completely unasked, but he doesn't want to push his own problems on either of his swords, for two very different reasons. But it's making it harder to sleep, too.] But you're right. Mostly I just wanted it to make me feel... different, maybe.