[Kazuya ducked his head at the headpat, but didn't fully move away. He knew it was fine to cry, but at the same time, he felt like he couldn't. All through the lockdown, Atsuro and Yuzu looked up to him, and he had to be the strong one. He couldn't cry, he couldn't show weakness, he had to keep pushing and going forwards! It got even worse when Keisuke joined, and then Midori, and then Keisuke died and everyone had been so upset and traumatised and Kazuya couldn't... cry. He had to...
But right now, he was a very very drunk teenager sitting naked on a sofa with only towels and Kevin's jacket keeping him decent. There was no one relying on him, no frantic situation that took priority over his own trauma, no angels staring down at him with judgement in their eyes. He was simply... Kazuya Minegishi...]
Y-Yeah. [His voice wobbled, and he used the handkerchief at last, wiping at his wet cheeks] I-I know. It's just, I, I was never allowed to cry, y'know. H-Had to stay strong, and all, so... I keep feelin' like... like m'doin' somethin' wrong when I... [Deep breath] God. M'such a mess...
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[Kazuya ducked his head at the headpat, but didn't fully move away. He knew it was fine to cry, but at the same time, he felt like he couldn't. All through the lockdown, Atsuro and Yuzu looked up to him, and he had to be the strong one. He couldn't cry, he couldn't show weakness, he had to keep pushing and going forwards! It got even worse when Keisuke joined, and then Midori, and then Keisuke died and everyone had been so upset and traumatised and Kazuya couldn't... cry. He had to...
But right now, he was a very very drunk teenager sitting naked on a sofa with only towels and Kevin's jacket keeping him decent. There was no one relying on him, no frantic situation that took priority over his own trauma, no angels staring down at him with judgement in their eyes. He was simply... Kazuya Minegishi...]
Y-Yeah. [His voice wobbled, and he used the handkerchief at last, wiping at his wet cheeks] I-I know. It's just, I, I was never allowed to cry, y'know. H-Had to stay strong, and all, so... I keep feelin' like... like m'doin' somethin' wrong when I... [Deep breath] God. M'such a mess...