[even if it hurts to hear those words, stahn doesn't falter. even if it takes everything in him to not falter, he holds his ground. maybe he shouldn't, but he believes to staunchly in this to just let leon think this is okay.]

I know that. But you never should have needed to make that choice to begin with, Leon! [doesn't he get that? why can't he understand this much? sure, it was leon's choice ultimately. and sure, it saved their lives. it was a sacrifice that ended up being necessary.

but stahn hates that. he hates that it was necessary to begin with. he hates that leon was forced into a situation where that was the only way. he hates that he wasn't in darilsheid to prevent things from getting so bad, and that leon wound up being nothing more than a pawn for hugo.

he hates all of that. he hates it so much and he regrets that he couldn't reach his hand out even a minute sooner to ensure that leon would never even have to risk his life and die such a painful, lonely and scary death. maybe this angers leon, but he cant help that he feels this way. and he's sure as hell not going to let leon just win, either. for all that he lets leon get away with... this doesn't qualify.]

I've already made my choice here. This is my choice! This isn't something you can decide for me, even if you think it's better. We're a team, and a team doesn't go alone!