[ he pauses for a moment to think, looking a little pensive. he's lost... a lot of people. ]

I used to be the same way. I'd channel it into anger. But the survival rate in my branch of the military is very low. Eventually I realized the best way to honor their memory is to just keep moving forward. I try to remember them all.

[ he shakes his head, almost like he's snapping out of a haze. ]

That's completely different, I know. But it sounds like you died honorably just like they did.

[ why does this keep happening. ]