[His voice is still quiet, but there's something that edges into his tone this time that resembles steel more closely than the softness that had come before it. He can't stand it when people talk about themselves like this, or hold up their worth against others as if it's something that could be comparable.
But he doesn't know how to put any of these complicated thoughts into words. He doesn't know how to say "you're all important", because he can't really say "you're all equally important". He would only be able to say that he'd risk his life for each one equally, and that's not something Lili wants to hear.]
I have Haruji and I have my comrades- [And god, does it sting to think about what might have happened to some right under his goddamn nose.] -but I have my friends, too. You're all precious to me. I can't just say "this person's worth this, and this person's worth this", get it? So— you're just gonna have to be mad at me.
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[His voice is still quiet, but there's something that edges into his tone this time that resembles steel more closely than the softness that had come before it. He can't stand it when people talk about themselves like this, or hold up their worth against others as if it's something that could be comparable.
But he doesn't know how to put any of these complicated thoughts into words. He doesn't know how to say "you're all important", because he can't really say "you're all equally important". He would only be able to say that he'd risk his life for each one equally, and that's not something Lili wants to hear.]
I have Haruji and I have my comrades- [And god, does it sting to think about what might have happened to some right under his goddamn nose.] -but I have my friends, too. You're all precious to me. I can't just say "this person's worth this, and this person's worth this", get it? So— you're just gonna have to be mad at me.
[But not leave. She can't leave.]