[Instead of responding with an outburst again, she continues to speak quietly. Her shoulders droop then, her defensive posture turning to something more tired, defeated.]
I'm... I'm trying to get stronger. [He should know that better than anyone - he'd agreed to train her, after all. She's dedicated. She goes to the dojo every single night after her long day because she can't bear the idea of letting a day slip by without trying to improve herself.] But you're already strong.
[A fact. She's not jealous. She's admiring, if anything. But there is a gap between the two of them. A distance that clouds his understanding.]
I can't stop what I do, though. I can't not investigate things that bother me or fix what's wrong. But if Yona comes with me... she has to protect me. How many times.... [It's more of a whisper to herself. How many times has Yona saved her?]
But if she doesn't know me... then she won't have to suffer like that.
[Even if Lili misses her. Even if Lili wants to know what she can do to be there for her. Even if it kills Lili quietly every single day to be away from the one person who inspired her.
Because right now - what does Yona get from being with her? When Lili is still so weak?
Yona deserves more than a world full of troubles.]
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[Instead of responding with an outburst again, she continues to speak quietly. Her shoulders droop then, her defensive posture turning to something more tired, defeated.]
I'm... I'm trying to get stronger. [He should know that better than anyone - he'd agreed to train her, after all. She's dedicated. She goes to the dojo every single night after her long day because she can't bear the idea of letting a day slip by without trying to improve herself.] But you're already strong.
[A fact. She's not jealous. She's admiring, if anything. But there is a gap between the two of them. A distance that clouds his understanding.]
I can't stop what I do, though. I can't not investigate things that bother me or fix what's wrong. But if Yona comes with me... she has to protect me. How many times.... [It's more of a whisper to herself. How many times has Yona saved her?]
But if she doesn't know me... then she won't have to suffer like that.
[Even if Lili misses her. Even if Lili wants to know what she can do to be there for her. Even if it kills Lili quietly every single day to be away from the one person who inspired her.
Because right now - what does Yona get from being with her? When Lili is still so weak?
Yona deserves more than a world full of troubles.]