Of course she knows nothing of that. What Lili knows is minimal. She knows an empty room, save for herself and her two attendants. She knows being locked away from the world every time she tried to free herself from the most beautiful prison in the country. She knows people trying to get on her good side strictly because of her status and not for her.
A part of her still wants to run - to leave this behind, to leave Kashuu behind as he'd still inevitably be safer.
Yet she knows that all the improvement she's had - if there has been any in the first place - is owed to him.
It's hard to imagine bettering herself without him.
When she looks up at him again, she's hurt still. She's pained and she doesn't know how to fix it right now. But she doesn't want to run anymore, there's a different kind of fear in her eyes.]
.... A compromise.
[A proposal. Isn't this what little Lili can do? Isn't this her one skill?]
I need to get stronger, I - I want to stand next to Yona [and you]. But I can't... I can't let her be near me until I get strong enough to protect her too.
[She wants to reach for him. She doesn't.]
Until I.... I'm no longer so weak that I can't stand next to you - please, please don't let yourself get hurt for...
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Of course she knows nothing of that. What Lili knows is minimal. She knows an empty room, save for herself and her two attendants. She knows being locked away from the world every time she tried to free herself from the most beautiful prison in the country. She knows people trying to get on her good side strictly because of her status and not for her.
A part of her still wants to run - to leave this behind, to leave Kashuu behind as he'd still inevitably be safer.
Yet she knows that all the improvement she's had - if there has been any in the first place - is owed to him.
It's hard to imagine bettering herself without him.
When she looks up at him again, she's hurt still. She's pained and she doesn't know how to fix it right now. But she doesn't want to run anymore, there's a different kind of fear in her eyes.]
.... A compromise.
[A proposal. Isn't this what little Lili can do? Isn't this her one skill?]
I need to get stronger, I - I want to stand next to Yona [and you]. But I can't... I can't let her be near me until I get strong enough to protect her too.
[She wants to reach for him. She doesn't.]
Until I.... I'm no longer so weak that I can't stand next to you - please, please don't let yourself get hurt for...
[For someone like me.]