[ he hates admitting it. even if it doesn't ultimately change how kashuu feels about him, doesn't it make him see haru a little differently..? and he doesn't want that. haru's never really thought of himself as a victim, or anything like that. it had simply been his reality, and he'd dealt with it the best way he knew how. he has four younger siblings that had depended on him, and now he has his spirits.

but kashuu doesn't seem interested in making a big deal of it, and he's more grateful for that than the other man could possibly know. when kashuu speaks back up again, he blinks, but then his expression softens faintly. ]

.. I know. [ at first, he'd been a little scared of it, and afraid of that kind of devotion, but now..? well, he's accepted it, at least, and he's maybe beginning by degrees to believe that he even deserves it. ] I love you, too. All of you. I-- [ his foot flexes a little in kashuu's hands, eyes dropping to his hands in his lap. ] I was really scared of becoming a saniwa at first. I almost turned the organization down. But.. I think now that maybe it's the best thing that ever happened to me.