[ again, his words spark that little something inside of her that tells her it's okay to be selfish. what's wrong with being human? ludger had asked her, and it was moments like these that almost made her want to say nothing at all.
she doesn't think of fighting his point then. that it wasn't a bad thing that she didn't want to die. she ultimately never quite made that decision herself. she'd never know if she would've ever quite gather the courage to do what she should've done, what that milla who they continue to speak of and admire would've done. was that fine? ]
... You know, you make it very hard not to care.
[ that's instead what she admits. when she got here, she was resolved to exist and nothing else, because she was dead, so what was the point?
and then there were people like kashuu; she found she cared when they were hurt, cared what they thought, cared when this stupid place brought up things it shouldn't.
now she was here. ]
Thank you.
[ it doesn't seem like enough, but she says it anyway. ]
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she doesn't think of fighting his point then. that it wasn't a bad thing that she didn't want to die. she ultimately never quite made that decision herself. she'd never know if she would've ever quite gather the courage to do what she should've done, what that milla who they continue to speak of and admire would've done. was that fine? ]
... You know, you make it very hard not to care.
[ that's instead what she admits. when she got here, she was resolved to exist and nothing else, because she was dead, so what was the point?
and then there were people like kashuu; she found she cared when they were hurt, cared what they thought, cared when this stupid place brought up things it shouldn't.
now she was here. ]
Thank you.
[ it doesn't seem like enough, but she says it anyway. ]