[What do you get when an unstoppable force means an immoveable object?

This, probably.]

Then why don't you let yourself want something more? Why don't you let yourself want something...?!

[Something. Anything. A kind word, a million credits, a new life. Whether it's small or extravagant, it occurs to Lili again that Leon never lets himself want for anything. Is this also why he doesn't have things that he likes? There are incorporeal things such as knowledge and while that's satisfying, that thirst for knowledge doesn't drive him.

Again, she realizes that he deserves so much more than what he's been given and it kills her.

Even so, she can't deny that to some degree, she understands. If something had happened to Yona, Lili would never be able to forgive herself - even in death. Is that what this is? Is this what would've happened to her if they would both lose their lives to something like this?

It's haunting.

It's terrifying.

But more than that, it breaks her heart to realize that out of everything, no matter what she says, Leon's the only one who can truly set himself free.]

I don't believe that you truly hate the world so much....