[ Maybe if he had his swords in hand when the memory began, then he could have shattered the mirrors into a million little pieces with them. But no, even if the thought crossed his mind, it was too late to act upon it. (They were still there anyway, leaning against glass.) The damage was done. The mirrors were making things fair between them. ]

[ And here was Lili, offering up her name (a small part of him musing that he had never gotten it, had he?) as if to complete the exchange. He doesn’t have to look at her fingers to know that she’s grasping for some semblance of control. His memory revealed lot of things, but most of them wouldn’t really make sense unless he filled in those blanks for her. ]

[ He liked those blanks. He’d rather they were there. The penalty for learning the secrets of the Shinsengumi was death, after all. Souji didn’t think he’d have much difficulty killing Lili, but he went ahead and made that troublesome promise earlier.It was so like him, to dig himself into a hole without a solution other than murder. So, while thinking of his options and of nothing at all, Souji meets her gaze with a blank, flat look. ]

Souji Okita. Captain of the first squad and sword of the Shinsengumi.

[ It’s everything and nothing at the same time. It’s who Souji is at his very core, but what would it mean to an outsider? He finally moves, turning to pick up his swords and carry them in his hands, since he gave his obi to Lili. ]

You should ask specific questions if you want specific answers.

[ But what would he say if she asked him if he was a monster? ...The truth, maybe? ]