[the silence definitely feels heavy as they make their way outside—it's not as if stahn really knows what to say or do either in this situation. usually, he's the one trying to help the people around him; getting help from someone else in this way is fairly unfamiliar to him.
even once they're away from those painful sights and sounds, it takes him a minute to get his bearings. he's hardly on the verge of collapse, but he's definitely a bit pale in the face—reliving something that painful again has that sort of effect on him. but stahn doesn't want to cause any more trouble for atsushi; he's already done a lot more than stahn would have expected.]
You don't have anything to be sorry for. I don't think anyone could be ready for something like this. [he swallows hard, drawing in a quiet breath. at least he is getting his composure back. being away from all that imagery definitely helps a lot. stahn listens thoughtfully to the rest of what atsushi says, and when he's done...
well, that's when stahn will address the part of this he finds most important.]
I don't know if you've ever met Leon. But... if you do... don't tell him you saw that. [and then he adds after a short pause:] And please don't treat him any differently than you would have before.
[stahn doesn't really want leon to know that people are seeing those memories, that people will know what leon did, and have an inkling to what sort of fate befell him. but he also doesn't want anyone to treat leon with pity or be nice to him just because of that, either.
he knows leon can be a hard person to get along with. he knows sometimes people need to be harsh with leon rather than let his rude behavior slide—so the last thing he'd want is for anyone to be nice to him just because he'd sacrificed his life for others.]
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even once they're away from those painful sights and sounds, it takes him a minute to get his bearings. he's hardly on the verge of collapse, but he's definitely a bit pale in the face—reliving something that painful again has that sort of effect on him. but stahn doesn't want to cause any more trouble for atsushi; he's already done a lot more than stahn would have expected.]
You don't have anything to be sorry for. I don't think anyone could be ready for something like this. [he swallows hard, drawing in a quiet breath. at least he is getting his composure back. being away from all that imagery definitely helps a lot. stahn listens thoughtfully to the rest of what atsushi says, and when he's done...
well, that's when stahn will address the part of this he finds most important.]
I don't know if you've ever met Leon. But... if you do... don't tell him you saw that. [and then he adds after a short pause:] And please don't treat him any differently than you would have before.
[stahn doesn't really want leon to know that people are seeing those memories, that people will know what leon did, and have an inkling to what sort of fate befell him. but he also doesn't want anyone to treat leon with pity or be nice to him just because of that, either.
he knows leon can be a hard person to get along with. he knows sometimes people need to be harsh with leon rather than let his rude behavior slide—so the last thing he'd want is for anyone to be nice to him just because he'd sacrificed his life for others.]