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[notsolomon]

Who: William Twining/notsolomon & you
When: OOC 3/13, IC: 6/6
Where: His and Kevin's apartment/the shopping district
What: For people who either want to celebrate his birthday or touch base with him after the last event. Or whatever your heart desires.
Rating/Warning: None



I: Apartment

[So today was his birthday. William had been so preoccupied that he had forgotten about the date until Kevin had reminded him. When he woke up that morning, William found that his feelings about the day were rather complicated. Especially since his last birthday had seen a complete upheaval in one of the very foundation stones of his life.

That had been when he'd learned that Kevin wasn't who he had appeared to be. That Kevin wasn't the Kevin he'd known since childhood, but someone who had taken the original's place, like a cuckoo bird invading a nest. And there had been countless other deceptions tied into that, Kevin's being an Angel among them.

It had all worked out in the end and for the better, as their relationship was now much stronger. But the date was firmly etched into his mind, more bittersweet than something to celebrate.

Of course, William wasn't one to let himself dwell on such things and he quickly gained his bearings and decided to get prepared for the day. He couldn't go to London this year, but William was going to enjoy the day and all it brought with it, regardless of any negative associations.

Throughout the day he texts different friends, inviting them over for cake and snacks, because there's only so much he can eat on his own.]

II. Shopping District

[He's saved enough money that he can treat himself, so William's been hitting different stores all day. He's mainly thinking of buying some books and a few video games, though mostly he's been window shopping here and there.

Despite having been in the city for a while, William still finds a bit of modern technology or some alien merchandise that surprises him. And he's staring at one particular thing now, whatever it is, one eyebrow raised.]

Whatever it is, they shouldn't advertise it with such an absurd slogan.

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Comments

[notsolomon]

I find that very sad,that you have lived that life.

[To always walk that narrow path where any flaw could doom you...

It seemed too painful. And limiting. People grew through their failings.

He doesn't know how to respond to that last bit. It's still difficult to wrap his mind around how much he affects Kevin, how much he changed the trajectory of his life. So he'll leave it alone, because anything he could say seems trite.]

Is there anyone other than me you enjoy talking with here? Because that would be a good start.

[He has a feeling that this might be a losing battle. He doesn't want Kevin to have friends just to please him. That would defeat the purpose. But baby steps.]

[senseandcecilbility]

It was not sad. It was never sad. [He has to protest, really.] We sang. Raphael better than any of us. And Michael was not so wounded by betrayal. All we wanted was to remain in God's Presence...

[He still misses it, and he knows he always will. He shakes his head. It's gone now, like his wing. He is no longer that angel. He will never stand that close to the throne again. And God has never answered his prayers. It is all right. He has found another precious treasure, hasn't he?]

I like Master Kaz, I believe. But I fear I disappointed him.

[notsolomon]

Oh...

[Well when he talks like that, William can't criticize.]

I guess that's another part of your life I never knew about. You should talk more about it. If you wish of course.

[He deliberates for a brief moment on asking about that conversation and decides to dive in.]

Do you want to talk about it? About what happened with Kazuya? He hasn't mentioned anything to me, though he might not wish to.

[senseandcecilbility]

I upset him. He was angry at God, and I could not understand.

[Do you know who else is kind of angry at God? This kid right in front of him. So angry he refuses to acknowledge his existence, but - somehow - Kevin finds that easier to deal with.]

Sometimes I wonder if we are even talking about the same being...

[It is one thing when a little kid's parents die in front of him. But what Master Kaz keeps telling him is on a complete different level, or so Kevin wishes to believe.]

[notsolomon]

[Oh how to discuss this with him? Hadn't William tried that before even? Back in London, when he'd asked why God would torture Solomon when he loved him so much? Of course, William hadn't known Kevin was actually Uriel, the very angel from those dreams.

And anger at God was a complicated thing. One that had been tempered over time as he'd embraced Realism. How could you hate something that didn't exist? Far better to think that the horrible things that happened in life were not the work of some all powerful deity, but random chance. That was far more comforting.

But then demons and angels had entered his life and William had been forced to shift his world view again. And for the moment, he had concluded that God was nothing more than a strict teacher or a controlling parent. Pitiful in his inability to get that he couldn't control humanity, so he foolishly doubled down instead, which only worsened the problem.

He searches a moment for what he wants to say.]

Well we do come from different worlds. It might be that the God of his world is very different from ours. Though I think that what he says and feels still applies to ours.

[While they were different in many ways, William could understand much of what Kazuya felt in that regard.]

It's hard to be told that God can punish and take from you and that you are supposed to love him anyways. That you are supposed to understand and obey someone who will never even bother to speak with you. It's frightening and frustrating.

And it's hard when someone like yourself come along and says to love him and accept his punishment. It even sounds dismissive.

[This isn't a pleasant topic and honestly, it would have been easier when William had still thought Kevin human. But the fact that he's not is all the more reason to try. Because if they can't reach an understanding, or learn to at least respect one another's differences, then what do they have?]

[senseandcecilbility]

[Kevin grows very quiet and starts fussing with his gloves. He did not intend to sound dismissive. There are rules, and there is a price for breaking them. For Kevin, that is a fact of life, and it always baffles him that humans have such a hard time accepting something as simple as that.

But right now, expressing his theological views coherently is the least of his concerns. He fears that he will say something terrible and Master William will reject him as he should. And then what? Chances are God will forsake him too. ]

Please, forgive me, sir.

[It is a scared plea more than anything. Don't kick me away. Don't rip off my wing. Don't stop talking to me. He doesn't even exactly know what he is apologizing for. Well, disappointing his precious person is most certainly a huge part of it. ]

I understand how you feel.

[About Master and Mistress. It was cruel of Kevin to bring God up, really.]

[notsolomon]

[He can sense the fear in Kevin's voice, which wasn't William's intention at all. He's realizing that he might have been overly ambitious in starting this discussion at this point, even though it's something that he's wanted to say for a while.]

Kevin... [He swallows the lump in his throat that he hadn't even realized had formed.] I'm not angry with you. There is nothing to forgive.

[And then just like that, William's going to let the conversation go for the moment. Because he suspects it will not be fruitful at this point. At least not the way it's going.]

I will not say anymore Kevin, though what I said still stands. And I hope you will at least consider what I said. You do not have to agree with me, though I would appreciate it if you at least try to think about where I am coming from.

But I will not pester you anymore on it. Not on today of all days.

[senseandcecilbility]

[It occurs to Kevin that he is the servant, the angel and the adult. He shouldn't be surrendering to his own insecurities like this.

Besides, the reassurance that Master William is not angry with him helps, though he must admit that the disappointed look on the young man's face breaks his heart.]

Forgive my audacity, but I believe I might know where you are coming from, sir. It is just that...not pushing any further is exactly what allows me to have a happy life by your side.

It is terribly selfish, I'm afraid, but it is the cruel heaven you and Master Kaz dislike so that allows me to be here. If I were to forsake God, if I were to lose my wing, it would be so that I would not miss a single birthday like this.

[A price he is now ready to pay, but only for this very good reason. And that, he hopes, is truth enough. The kind of truth young master deserves from a liar like him. To emphasize his words, he presses his warm lips to the precious boy's forehead.]

[notsolomon]

[He doesn't move away, instead lightly clutching at Kevin's shoulder. Whenever he had thought of home, Kevin was the first thing that entered his mind. Kevin who was always there to greet him and who remained by his side. And while his mental definition of home had begun to expand lately, Kevin was still an integral part of it.]

Kevin... do not do something like that just my sake. I do not think I could bear it if you were hurt that way.

[Granted, a selfish part of him did wonder if that would make things easier, for the both of them? They wouldn't have to worry about being separated if the decision was out of their hands.

But it was only a fleeting thought.]

...are you in terrible danger of that happening to you?

[senseandcecilbility]

[Kevin lets out a laughter that is nervous, surprised and delighted all at once. This child, this child. What would he ever do without him?

He wraps his arms around William and squeezes, not caring at all at the scene they are making, then rests his chin on top of the precious blond head. The plush horse has been forgotten a long time ago.]

If that ever happened it would be for my own sake, don't you see? [ It would be easy to add something as sappy as I love you. ] Besides, I am relatively safe from heaven and hell as long as we are stuck here. And so are you.

[notsolomon]

...I would never ask you to do that, though I will not lie and say it doesn't make me happy to hear.

[Far too much. And as for this place...]

We might not be stuck here forever though.

[And there are so many problems to return to, much as he doesn't want to. And even putting aside his many responsibilities and friends back there, William liked the life they had made here. It was a complicated thing to think about and he feared when the choice would come. If it ever did.]

But I will not let anything happen to you if I can help it, Kevin. I promise you that much.