[Bringing that up now irritates him, but at least that rouses him from the gloom and brings a spark of life back]

I wasn't trying to throw it away! Don't act like I made that decision lightly. I was trying to save the crew, it was the only choice. [pokes him hard in the arm, several times] Not like you can talk, you tried to do the exact same thing as me, asshole.

[which has always bothered him, at the back of his mind. He wouldn't have expected the cook, of all people, to step up like that on his behalf, to try to save his life through sacrifice. There were much smarter options he could have turned to...weren't there?

But now knowing what the guy went through as a kid - I'm a survivor - it makes even less sense that his survival instincts took a back seat to that sacrifice. Just what was going through his head, that time?

No, not deliberately walking through the fox to find out first-hand.]

So much for being a survivor. Kuma would've killed you, and we'd have been without a cook. You know what that would have done to everyone.