[it's something stahn hesitates on answering, because he'd like nothing more than to be able to give chihiro some kind of definitive answer. but the truth is that he can't—he's thought about it a lot, and he hasn't been able to come to any sort of solid conclusion on it.
dymlos hasn't either, which is why he sighs again; he knows he doesn't have to step in for stahn during this conversation, but it bothers him just as much that they're a bit in the dark about the situation.
quietly, stahn draws in a breath, closing his eyes for a moment before opening them again, allowing his gaze to fall on chihiro. he's a bit more serious, unsure, and yet still resolved. he doesn't really want to let his own lack of answers fall on her; taking anyone's hope away.
all the same? he can't do anything but be honest about what he thinks and feels, too.]
I want to believe that isn't true. I want to believe that even though CERES isn't very good, that even though I think they really do lie a lot about what their goals are—I want to believe that they're not that terrible.
[but there's a distinct different in what he wants to believe and what he thinks is possible.]
But... It might be possible.
[he admits, quietly—and it's surprising enough that dymlos reacts as well. there was a time when stahn would have never said something like that, when he was younger and had experienced less hardship, when he hadn't been privy to betrayal or corporations that had corrupt goals.]
Stahn, you—
[stahn cuts him off, because he's not done yet.]
Not everything CERES has done is bad. But I don't think we know enough about CERES or the people who run it... and I don't think we really know enough about the Flamines yet, either. So I don't want to say it's impossible... but if that ends up being the truth...
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[it's something stahn hesitates on answering, because he'd like nothing more than to be able to give chihiro some kind of definitive answer. but the truth is that he can't—he's thought about it a lot, and he hasn't been able to come to any sort of solid conclusion on it.
dymlos hasn't either, which is why he sighs again; he knows he doesn't have to step in for stahn during this conversation, but it bothers him just as much that they're a bit in the dark about the situation.
quietly, stahn draws in a breath, closing his eyes for a moment before opening them again, allowing his gaze to fall on chihiro. he's a bit more serious, unsure, and yet still resolved. he doesn't really want to let his own lack of answers fall on her; taking anyone's hope away.
all the same? he can't do anything but be honest about what he thinks and feels, too.]
I want to believe that isn't true. I want to believe that even though CERES isn't very good, that even though I think they really do lie a lot about what their goals are—I want to believe that they're not that terrible.
[but there's a distinct different in what he wants to believe and what he thinks is possible.]
But... It might be possible.
[he admits, quietly—and it's surprising enough that dymlos reacts as well. there was a time when stahn would have never said something like that, when he was younger and had experienced less hardship, when he hadn't been privy to betrayal or corporations that had corrupt goals.]
Stahn, you—
[stahn cuts him off, because he's not done yet.]
Not everything CERES has done is bad. But I don't think we know enough about CERES or the people who run it... and I don't think we really know enough about the Flamines yet, either. So I don't want to say it's impossible... but if that ends up being the truth...
Then it's unforgivable.