I do need you, [ the Shadow whispers, all mortification and desperation. ] More than I know how to cope with.
[ Yosuke. Yosuke. How had he gone a month without his best friend? How has he managed his way through that time?
A piece of his traitorous heart whispers a name, a boy's name.
Yu reaches out without a moment's hesitation and cups Yosuke's face in one hand, the gesture tender and gentle and too sweet. ]
Hah... it's not that I don't think I need people. I want to not need them. I need them so much that it scares me. What would I do without my bonds? I'd be alone. I can't be alone again. If I don't need anyone, then I can't risk getting them killed and driving them away for good through my own incompetence. But at the same time, I can't live without them. I can't live without you.
[ After a moment of simply staring into Yosuke's eyes, Yu abruptly grins so wide it splits his face open. It looks a little wild, a little insane. His fingers curl until his nails are pressing into the soft flesh of Yosuke's cheek. Not digging, not gouging. But it still won't feel comfortable. ]
I'm already on your level. We're the same kind of pathetic, don't you get it? You set me up to be an ideal, something you feel like you have to achieve, but I'm not that person. I never have been. I'm needy and scared and weak. Isn't that funny? Now who's the one with an impossible standard to live up to?
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[ Yosuke. Yosuke. How had he gone a month without his best friend? How has he managed his way through that time?
A piece of his traitorous heart whispers a name, a boy's name.
Yu reaches out without a moment's hesitation and cups Yosuke's face in one hand, the gesture tender and gentle and too sweet. ]
Hah... it's not that I don't think I need people. I want to not need them. I need them so much that it scares me. What would I do without my bonds? I'd be alone. I can't be alone again. If I don't need anyone, then I can't risk getting them killed and driving them away for good through my own incompetence. But at the same time, I can't live without them. I can't live without you.
[ After a moment of simply staring into Yosuke's eyes, Yu abruptly grins so wide it splits his face open. It looks a little wild, a little insane. His fingers curl until his nails are pressing into the soft flesh of Yosuke's cheek. Not digging, not gouging. But it still won't feel comfortable. ]
I'm already on your level. We're the same kind of pathetic, don't you get it? You set me up to be an ideal, something you feel like you have to achieve, but I'm not that person. I never have been. I'm needy and scared and weak. Isn't that funny? Now who's the one with an impossible standard to live up to?