[ Yu's mouth hangs open just slightly as if he'll speak, but he says nothing. Just watches Yosuke, absorbed in the way his best friend winces but doesn't move, twists to face him, focuses on him.
Yu doesn't need Yosuke's attention the way Yosuke needs his. But it's still nice to have.
His breathing pauses for just a second, a momentary hitch, when Yosuke reaches out to touch him. Yu drops his hand and twists so he can face Yosuke, too. Only one of his legs trails off the wall, the other tucked up beneath him. He uses the hand he dropped to lean forward just so. Towards Yosuke. Into him.
But he doesn't get too close. Not too close. Yosuke might run, then.
Yosuke isn't like that. ]
I never wanted to be special like that. When everyone started looking up to me as a leader, and put me up on a pedestal... I was terrified. Terrified of messing up and letting someone die in the TV world, terrified I wouldn't be able to solve the case with all of you... but I was so desperate to keep all my new friends that I never said anything. I couldn't go back to being alone... so I became what everyone wanted me to be. What you wanted me to be.
[ Yu reaches out and closes his fingers around Yosuke's wrist. ]
How can you be second to someone who isn't real?
[ He breaks his lock on Yosuke's gaze, looking down instead. He doesn't let go. His thumb shifts up until it can press into Yosuke's palm. ]
It makes me happy to hear that you want to stay just because of me. It gives me hope that maybe you'll change your mind.
[ Yu pulls Yosuke's hand forward and presses it to his own cheek. ]
Which is stupid, isn't it? You're not like that. Even if you might have felt that way about me someday, I ruined it with those memories. I don't have a chance with you anymore. I hate myself for even wanting one. What's wrong with me? Why can't I stop thinking about you? I should just let it go, because you're not like that, and Minato only just broke up with me. [ First name, no honorific. The Shadow isn't feeling as respectful of Minato as Yu would normally be. ]
But I can't. [ He smiles, sick and sad. ] How sad is that?
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Yu doesn't need Yosuke's attention the way Yosuke needs his. But it's still nice to have.
His breathing pauses for just a second, a momentary hitch, when Yosuke reaches out to touch him. Yu drops his hand and twists so he can face Yosuke, too. Only one of his legs trails off the wall, the other tucked up beneath him. He uses the hand he dropped to lean forward just so. Towards Yosuke. Into him.
But he doesn't get too close. Not too close. Yosuke might run, then.
Yosuke isn't like that. ]
I never wanted to be special like that. When everyone started looking up to me as a leader, and put me up on a pedestal... I was terrified. Terrified of messing up and letting someone die in the TV world, terrified I wouldn't be able to solve the case with all of you... but I was so desperate to keep all my new friends that I never said anything. I couldn't go back to being alone... so I became what everyone wanted me to be. What you wanted me to be.
[ Yu reaches out and closes his fingers around Yosuke's wrist. ]
How can you be second to someone who isn't real?
[ He breaks his lock on Yosuke's gaze, looking down instead. He doesn't let go. His thumb shifts up until it can press into Yosuke's palm. ]
It makes me happy to hear that you want to stay just because of me. It gives me hope that maybe you'll change your mind.
[ Yu pulls Yosuke's hand forward and presses it to his own cheek. ]
Which is stupid, isn't it? You're not like that. Even if you might have felt that way about me someday, I ruined it with those memories. I don't have a chance with you anymore. I hate myself for even wanting one. What's wrong with me? Why can't I stop thinking about you? I should just let it go, because you're not like that, and Minato only just broke up with me. [ First name, no honorific. The Shadow isn't feeling as respectful of Minato as Yu would normally be. ]
But I can't. [ He smiles, sick and sad. ] How sad is that?