but she doesn't say it out loud, instead just tells herself that. it's because people go away--it's because she loses people that she'd be willing to just put aside (more like throw away) what she's worked for just so she doesn't have to lose them. somehow, in her convoluted way of thinking, this is a good idea. ]
Why? Who wouldn't react this way? I didn't think that it would actually happen. That you'd go.
I don't want to be this way... I don't want to. But it's hard not to think about these things.
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but she doesn't say it out loud, instead just tells herself that. it's because people go away--it's because she loses people that she'd be willing to just put aside (more like throw away) what she's worked for just so she doesn't have to lose them. somehow, in her convoluted way of thinking, this is a good idea. ]
Why? Who wouldn't react this way? I didn't think that it would actually happen. That you'd go.
I don't want to be this way... I don't want to. But it's hard not to think about these things.