[he's not denying that. of course he's going to do that, because he has no other choice.] I promised... I promised you that I would.
[he won't break a promise to leon. he always said he would go back home, no matter how much it hurt him to do so, even if it meant being separated from leon. his grip tightens as he chokes back a sob.
stahn knows now more than any time before why this hurts so much. it's not just that leon is his best friend, it's not just his guilt for not being able to save leon on more than one occasion. it's that leon is just the person he would try to move the entire earth for. his eyes sting, his chest hurts, his heart is racing... and all stahn can do his choke back a sob and cling to leon for as long as he can.
there's a lot he wishes he would have realizes sooner, but now all stahn can do is be himself without regret, even if it means being too open, too honest, too earnest... and far more idealistic than leon ever appreciated.]
But I'm not giving up on you either! I'm not... I won't leave you behind again, even if you can't come back. [it's so hard to say. it's so hard for him to admit how much that will always weigh on him.]
...You...
You believe in me, don't you? [that stahn can be trusted. that he doesn't say things he doesn't mean. that if it's possible for him to do something, he will. there's not a snowball's chance in hell that stahn will go the rest of his life not seeing leon again when knows there are ways to make it happen.
he's resolved in that much, even if it's hard for him to sound like it through his overwhelming emotions.]
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[he's not denying that. of course he's going to do that, because he has no other choice.] I promised... I promised you that I would.
[he won't break a promise to leon. he always said he would go back home, no matter how much it hurt him to do so, even if it meant being separated from leon. his grip tightens as he chokes back a sob.
stahn knows now more than any time before why this hurts so much. it's not just that leon is his best friend, it's not just his guilt for not being able to save leon on more than one occasion. it's that leon is just the person he would try to move the entire earth for. his eyes sting, his chest hurts, his heart is racing... and all stahn can do his choke back a sob and cling to leon for as long as he can.
there's a lot he wishes he would have realizes sooner, but now all stahn can do is be himself without regret, even if it means being too open, too honest, too earnest... and far more idealistic than leon ever appreciated.]
But I'm not giving up on you either! I'm not... I won't leave you behind again, even if you can't come back. [it's so hard to say. it's so hard for him to admit how much that will always weigh on him.]
...You...
You believe in me, don't you? [that stahn can be trusted. that he doesn't say things he doesn't mean. that if it's possible for him to do something, he will. there's not a snowball's chance in hell that stahn will go the rest of his life not seeing leon again when knows there are ways to make it happen.
he's resolved in that much, even if it's hard for him to sound like it through his overwhelming emotions.]