[ a couple of tears fall before he even notices, and it's only then that he brings a hand up to roughly wipe them away. dammit. he isn't supposed to be crying, he's supposed to be asking him "why?" why is Kratos playing dumb? why is he constantly claiming that Lloyd shouldn't know? and more importantly: why does he choose to do it now, when Lloyd had pretty much accepted that he would never see his father again for as long as he lived?
a part of Lloyd, the one that's still together, tells him that it's probably not his fault. there is a chance that Kratos is hiding something from him, or it could be that CERES did something to him to make him forget that Lloyd knew about their relationship already. if that was the case, what else did he forget? did he forget about how he survived being freed from Origin's seal, or how Mithos had fallen by his hand and the worlds were reunited? did he forget about Yggdrasill? and did he forget about Lloyd's current "condition"?
he doesn't voice those questions, though. his heart takes precedence over his mind, and he's far too angry at Kratos to think rationally. ]
I-I get it, okay? I know why you had to go back to Derris-Kharlan, I know how important it was! I was still taking care of what I had to do back home and I was fine with it!
[ he's still rubbing at his eyes, trying to catch the tears before they fall. everything he bottled up for the last year and a half: all the heartache, all the confessions and admittances to Colette when she asked if he was okay, all the hesitant pauses before adding "…hi, Dad" to his mother's grave-- it rushes out all at once and Lloyd is nigh powerless to stop it. ]
But it's been almost two years! I missed you, I thought I would never see you again! And now you're here saying I shouldn't know that you're my dad and--!
[ a sob escapes before he can finish that sentence. all he wanted was his father back. that's all he wanted. ]
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[ a couple of tears fall before he even notices, and it's only then that he brings a hand up to roughly wipe them away. dammit. he isn't supposed to be crying, he's supposed to be asking him "why?" why is Kratos playing dumb? why is he constantly claiming that Lloyd shouldn't know? and more importantly: why does he choose to do it now, when Lloyd had pretty much accepted that he would never see his father again for as long as he lived?
a part of Lloyd, the one that's still together, tells him that it's probably not his fault. there is a chance that Kratos is hiding something from him, or it could be that CERES did something to him to make him forget that Lloyd knew about their relationship already. if that was the case, what else did he forget? did he forget about how he survived being freed from Origin's seal, or how Mithos had fallen by his hand and the worlds were reunited? did he forget about Yggdrasill? and did he forget about Lloyd's current "condition"?
he doesn't voice those questions, though. his heart takes precedence over his mind, and he's far too angry at Kratos to think rationally. ]
I-I get it, okay? I know why you had to go back to Derris-Kharlan, I know how important it was! I was still taking care of what I had to do back home and I was fine with it!
[ he's still rubbing at his eyes, trying to catch the tears before they fall. everything he bottled up for the last year and a half: all the heartache, all the confessions and admittances to Colette when she asked if he was okay, all the hesitant pauses before adding "…hi, Dad" to his mother's grave-- it rushes out all at once and Lloyd is nigh powerless to stop it. ]
But it's been almost two years! I missed you, I thought I would never see you again! And now you're here saying I shouldn't know that you're my dad and--!
[ a sob escapes before he can finish that sentence. all he wanted was his father back. that's all he wanted. ]