[ This feeling could only be likened to someone removing a heavy blindfold from across their eyes; it was liberating and he could truly see the overall picture more clearly.
Sure, he had everyone at Anteiku whom he got to know very well and they accepted him but in doing this, he really hadn't stopped to think how much his disappearance would have impacted Hide. He'd been truly blind and he hated it now, if only because it meant this was the likely reasons behind his best friend's tears that he felt so clearly in their warmth as they hit his shoulder. Hide had always been strong when he couldn't and he'd be incredibly hard pressed to find a time that he'd ever actually seen Hide cry at all - he was so strong, so bright, and that reminded him now that like anyone else, he was human.
Yet through all these tears, his friend would still support him with his kind words and actions. It struck right down to his very heart that he'd mostly locked away from the rest of the world. ]
...No. I can't... It's not okay, Hide.
[ His voice shakes and trembles, quivering with vulnerable hurt and emotion as his fingers clutched at Hide's shirt firmly. Kaneki wasn't ready to let go either and he couldn't give a damn if anyone saw him because doing this, he felt like he was truly feeling again after all this time.
He needed this and so did Hide. ]
I... I thought I was protecting you and the others but I... I didn't see that all I did was hurt you all, I was so selfish! If I would have listened to everyone then maybe things... wouldn't be as they are now.
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Sure, he had everyone at Anteiku whom he got to know very well and they accepted him but in doing this, he really hadn't stopped to think how much his disappearance would have impacted Hide. He'd been truly blind and he hated it now, if only because it meant this was the likely reasons behind his best friend's tears that he felt so clearly in their warmth as they hit his shoulder. Hide had always been strong when he couldn't and he'd be incredibly hard pressed to find a time that he'd ever actually seen Hide cry at all - he was so strong, so bright, and that reminded him now that like anyone else, he was human.
Yet through all these tears, his friend would still support him with his kind words and actions. It struck right down to his very heart that he'd mostly locked away from the rest of the world. ]
...No. I can't... It's not okay, Hide.
[ His voice shakes and trembles, quivering with vulnerable hurt and emotion as his fingers clutched at Hide's shirt firmly. Kaneki wasn't ready to let go either and he couldn't give a damn if anyone saw him because doing this, he felt like he was truly feeling again after all this time.
He needed this and so did Hide. ]
I... I thought I was protecting you and the others but I... I didn't see that all I did was hurt you all, I was so selfish! If I would have listened to everyone then maybe things... wouldn't be as they are now.