[It does need to happen, probably.]

Not many people do. I hate talking about it.

[She really hates it, it puts people on their guard, makes them uncomfortable, and she's lived with that for far too long already.]

At home, I would spend time with my close friends. Only one of whom is here. Or I would meditate, but this place...I don't know, I have trouble focusing. I'm not in control here, I'm not in my shrine, finding my center is elusive at best.