[She knows that to some degree, this was the right time to be angry. And who would blame her?
But anger is a special emotion. For her, it would manifest as pure and cold rage. That's not how she felt towards him though, not right now. It's only sorrow that she's encased in, that begins to blur her eyes and suddenly, she can't see Hiro anymore either.]
... Do you know how many people I've told what I just shared with you?
[Barely any. Archer, Athena, and Adolf might have had an idea of course, but she hadn't shared the full story with them yet. They had given her space and so much time.]
Did you think that I was always naive, always blindly thinking the best of others, always thinking I would receive something in return because I was acting nice??
[Ah, maybe this was anger? A rush of words that wouldn't stop, that just kept going and going even though it may as well fall on deaf ears at this point.]
I'm... I'm human. [Why did it sound so pathetic when she said it herself? She knew she was one long ago. That was her existence, but the people who made her kept trying to distort that into something else.]
But everything in my life up until now was all about killing that human side of me and turning into something that I couldn't possibly live up to. And when I was with you and everyone else... I thought it was okay. I don't know how to fake anything. There's just... I don't know anything.
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But anger is a special emotion. For her, it would manifest as pure and cold rage. That's not how she felt towards him though, not right now. It's only sorrow that she's encased in, that begins to blur her eyes and suddenly, she can't see Hiro anymore either.]
... Do you know how many people I've told what I just shared with you?
[Barely any. Archer, Athena, and Adolf might have had an idea of course, but she hadn't shared the full story with them yet. They had given her space and so much time.]
Did you think that I was always naive, always blindly thinking the best of others, always thinking I would receive something in return because I was acting nice??
[Ah, maybe this was anger? A rush of words that wouldn't stop, that just kept going and going even though it may as well fall on deaf ears at this point.]
I'm... I'm human. [Why did it sound so pathetic when she said it herself? She knew she was one long ago. That was her existence, but the people who made her kept trying to distort that into something else.]
But everything in my life up until now was all about killing that human side of me and turning into something that I couldn't possibly live up to. And when I was with you and everyone else... I thought it was okay. I don't know how to fake anything. There's just... I don't know anything.