estoria | (closed)

Entry tags:

(closed)

Who: Oz & Friends: The Musical
When: Post-event
Where: Out and about in the city
What: Various nerd bonding moments
Warning: None!

elsa;
[After all the chaos of Fortune-Telling Week From Hell settles down, it's time to make good on that promise for tea! Elsa seems like a neat person to know, after all, and even if their topic at the time had been a little heavy, that's just all the more reason to get to know her a little better. That sort of burden is hard to carry alone.

So after giving the directions and setting a time, Oz can be found sitting outside of the cafe in question. He's got something folded on his lap and seems to be alternating between people-watching and checking his phone, buzzing with the quiet excitement of meeting someone new.]

mabel;
[GUESS WHERE MABEL AND OZ ARE. That's right, on the best friend date ever. Ever. It's only just started and Oz is already having a great time, pressing his face against the CyBuddy displays and being stupidly excited in general over all these weirdass animals. Ciel has his big fat owl, so maybe said owl needs a companion...!

He stops in front of one display in particular though, where a very small dog with very large ears sits at attention, ready and waiting for the next customer to come test its functions. Instead of doing that, Oz just points with GREAT VIGOR and calls over to wherever Mabel happens to be moseying about, clearly excited.]

Mabel! Come look at this one! Look at its ears—!!

[This dog must be stopped.]

taka;
[It's nerd time in the library, time for all library nerds to go perusing at their collective leisure...! SO OF COURSE OZ IS HERE, looking around the shelves for anything that's been added since the last time he'd visited. Nothing really catches his eye yet; even with all of the books here, he's already read his way through most of the fiction section that had struck immediate interest and has yet to find anything actually useful in the non-fiction section, outside of how-to manuals for technological devices. He's almost at the end of the row by the time he spots it-

The familiar spines all lined up in a neat row. Finally. FINALLY.]

They have it—!!

[Oops, were you trying to read in a peaceful corner or actually get some work done?? IT IS PEACEFUL NO MORE, since Oz doesn't know how to use volume control when he's excited.]

yoon;
[Now that Oz has taken up trying to cook some things on his own, it also means that he has to learn to shop for groceries on his own... And normally, he isn't too bad at that! He actually has a fairly good idea of what makes a balanced meal and knows what he likes, so it doesn't take long to finish up and he doesn't spend time lingering in the aisles.

Today is unfortunately not one of those days. Living in the House of Eternal Sweet-tooth means that candy is never in short supply, but with all of the crazy goings-on lately, it's been a little hard to remember to restock the candy jar. Today, the grocery store happens to be having a buy 1 get 1 free sale, too, which means that all of the soup stocks and vegetables and fruits in Oz's cart are buried under a literal mountain of candy.

A mountain that goes sLIDING RIGHT OVER IN AN AVALANCHE when Oz takes a turn too quickly, burying the feet of anyone who happens to be nearby. SO, YOU, YOON. You are the chosen one.]

Oh— sorry about that! I guess I put a little too much in here. [An Understatement™. Oz will immediately move to start picking various bags of M&Ms and jolly ranchers up, though, because he's not a rudeass who makes other people clean up for him.]

ciel;
[IT'S 10AM, DO YOU KNOW WHERE YOUR OZES ARE?

In the kitchen, tiredly stirring around his oatmeal in an absent-minded way. Horror of horrors, there aren't even any sprinkles in it today.

Even though he tried his best to get some sleep the night before, he couldn't manage it. He's been wound with anxious energy for hours now, and it's exhausting, but there's no reprieve in sight just yet and even if there was, he probably wouldn't take it. He's got a lot of things to think about, some clothing to throw away, and apologies to make - later, after the general insanity dies down. But that leaves him in a limbo of sorts for the time being, and it's why he's staring somewhat absently out the window whenever Ciel moseys out of his sleep coma for the day.

His attention still snaps over regardless, and Ciel gets the same cheery:]

Morning!

sheba;
["I'll be meeting you for tea once all of this is straightened out." WELL THINGS ARE STRAIGHTENED OUT NOW!! And Oz, who needs to check up on everyone that he's watching out for anyway, will take any reason to make the standard "so did you survive" conversation pass a little more smoothly. Good lord, he's going to become one of the cafe's most valued customers in less than a week at this rate...

But that's why he's standing out in the apartment hall at around noon a few days after things settle back down again, knocking on Sheba's door.]

Sheba? It's Oz! Are you here?

[Maybe he should have tried calling first?! What a moron.]

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

[ It does sound odd, which gets Ciel's brow to knit together as he levels him an even, half-suspicious look. That's the sort of sentiment that Ciel expresses, so to hear it from Oz, he almost wants to focus on that more. It catches his attention out of paranoia, because no matter how long they're friends, there's still a part of Ciel that expects Oz to reveal one day that it was all a farce.

He pushes that notion away, though. Even if that were true, it's not the topic of their conversation now, so his gaze averts this his hands instead, and he lapses into a silence.

It's difficult for him to express, because what he wants to say is tangled up in so many emotions and traumas that they all get jumbled together. He doesn't want to speak to those, but it's hard to step around them. It takes him several, long moments, but what he ultimately says is simple. ]

She shouldn't know someone like me.

[ He says it coldly and resolutely, and though he doesn't elaborate on why that is, it's not hard to guess. It's the other side of the evil nobleman that Ciel presents himself as. Anyone that gets too close is likely to be destroyed, since that was his family's curse. Even though he doesn't have his status here or his demon, that feeling it something Ciel still feels as a deeply rooted truth. He would do anything to keep moving forward, and that didn't change here, after all.

It's a deep insecurity, and something very telling about how Ciel views himself, but that moment passes as he looks to his mug of tea instead. ]

If she doesn't remember, then I don't want her to. Not even a fraction of it under different circumstances.

[Since Oz is BLISSFULLY UNAWARE of the fact that Ciel's rudely misconstruing what he's said (he really will never learn), he doesn't linger on that at all. He doesn't want it to be lingered on anyway, since it's a soft topic to broach. Being open is still something that he struggles with, even if he seems like he has no problem with it at all.

He folds his hands together in front of his still-untouched oatmeal, head canting to the side a little.]

...I understand what you're trying to do. [And he does. Maybe if he were a different person with different circumstances surrounding him, he'd have taken similar actions.]

But is deciding whether she should or shouldn't know you for her really any better?

[Any better than a deceptive friendship, or an uneven one, or one where there's a small chance of one or both parties being hurt. It seems about even to Oz, who's giving Ciel another one of those looks that seems more observant than someone his age should be capable of.]

I'm not going to tell you what you should or shouldn't do, but I think you might be making a mistake.

...I think it is, yes.

[ But there's less certainty in his words, because under that particular scrutiny that Oz is capable of, Ciel does shrink back despite himself. It seems like he won't explain, since he takes a drink of his tea, but he does speak up again. It's more awkward and uncertain, because this is a sentiment he doesn't often express without the guise of the nobleman to mask it and give himself confidence. ]

She's had a happy life. [ a pause, then he adds: ] A normal one. I don't want to ruin that for her.

[The look certainly doesn't abate just yet either, because Oz is trying to puzzle this out and make sure that he doesn't miss anything crucial.]

And you think that just making contact with her again would be enough to do that?

[The way he says that, his words aren't weighted in one direction or another. Not persuasive - just questioning.

Of course, he's asking that particular question for a reason, but he wants as unbiased an answer as possible.]

[ He nods, and though his expression stays with an almost childish sort of petulance for a moment, he manages to find a way to explain it that isn't quite so uncomfortable for him. With a question like that, Ciel feels anxious, because it's exactly the kind of open-ended question that Sebastian likes to ask to dig claws into his heart. So without even thinking about that fully, Ciel answers as he would to such a loaded question. ]

Yes, I do. I may not be acting as the Queen's Watchdog here, but my viewpoint isn't changed. I hate sitting idly, so moving forward, I won't regret any moves that allow me to advance.

[ There's an emphasis on any that makes it clear what Ciel means by that. He's acknowledging that he's likely to get his hands dirty here, and he doesn't want Mabel to get tangled into that world. ]

Whatever this place is supposed to be, it's either just a pause, or it will be my end. I have to return home, since I've staked my soul upon my revenge. It's as simple as that.

[THIS DINGUS. Oz can certainly tell that the tone of his answer has changed, and even though he isn't entirely sure why it has, it's enough to bring a sort of weariness to his face. IN IT FOR THE LONG HAUL... He's just a little more emotionally exhausted than he normally would be, and he isn't able to hide it as well.]

I don't think that there's anything wrong with being focused on something or trying to move forward. Stagnation is a really bad thing sometimes. [PUTTING IT LIGHTLY.

He seems to be considering something after that, though. His eyes drift from Ciel's face and off toward the kitchen instead. Then, softly:]

But if you fix your gaze forward so strongly, you'll miss the chances that pass by right under your nose.

[LIKE BEING FRIENDS WITH MABEL AGAIN. Either way, he can tell he's probably running into a brick wall here, so he'll just have to forcibly drag Ciel out to hang out with her hAH no escape.]

I'm aware of that.

[ He answers immediately and without hesitation, but there's a softness to his tone, however slight it may be. He takes another sip of tea, then sets it down again with his hands clasped around the mug. It's lightly, but it still gives the impression like he's holding onto it like an anchor for a heavier topic. ]

But that's a part of the price I pay. I wouldn't call it noble or admirable, but it's a consequence of what I'm pursuing. [ He sighs too, then shakes his head. ] It might be wrong of me, but I wanted to protect her because I understood. We both watched our brothers be killed, and I wanted to make sure it wasn't a demon's hand that she ended up taking out of desperation.

[ He doesn't say it directly, but the implication that he didn't want her to become like him is clear enough. ]

So maybe I was successful, since she's here now without remembering it. So that should be enough. She's a kind, warm person, so she'll always worry about me, even if she doesn't know me as well as she did. I have to let those chances pass by if I care about someone, because is it fair to drag them into my game?

[He definitely catches the implication, and if nothing else, this just says to him that he's right in his assumptions regarding why Ciel thinks this is the best path to take. Oz disagrees, personally - that viewpoint will probably never change. He also knows that it isn't really his place to interfere. This is a bond that exists - or existed - between Ciel and Mabel. In the end, it'll be up to them to decide what to do.

But it should be a "them", here. While it isn't necessarily fair for Ciel's acquaintances and friends to be dragged into a mess that's beyond their understanding, it's equally unfair for him to decide all of this for Mabel without any input from her at all; or at least, that's how it seems from Oz's perspective. Maybe, he thinks, it's because Ciel is afraid - much more afraid than he's letting on. They both know what Mabel's response would be. Like himself, she would choose to befriend Ciel again.

After a few seconds of quiet, thoughtful silence, he sits back in his chair, fixing Ciel with another solid look.]

Things like this are a little too complicated to put in small categories like fair and unfair. [Relationships are messy. Human emotions can never be boxed up so easily.]

I know that you're doing this for Mabel's sake. You're trying your best to protect someone that you care about, right? I think that part of you is really admirable. [A smile! It's definitely a good quality, that sort of selflessness, even it can loop back around to being selfish. But that's just a part of being human too, isn't it?]

—Still! It's my job as your friend to keep you from doing stupid things when I can, too. [WHAT A RUDE BRAT... But he seems well-intentioned and genuine regardless, and some of the intensity shifts out of his stare.] Will you at least think about it a little more? You don't have to say yes or no. As long as you consider it, that's fine.

[He'll work on the rest later. A first step is all he can hope for for now.]

[ Ciel was acutely aware that this posturing of the evil nobleman was terribly off-putting, and as such, as soon as he had resolved to explain it that way, he had expected Oz to push back against it. It's what he would do, what anyone would do, he thought, because it's a harsh way of looking at things, and one that's also deeply selfish.

The solid look is met evenly, but when Oz compliments him, calls him admirable of all things, Ciel's stony expression falters. It's surprise, at first, but then he looks down, turning his eyes away from Oz's as he continues. Oz has gotten his moement, but it's a rather sad expression all the same. ]

I— [ He hesitates, because what he wanted to say was close to the sentiment he had expressed to Finny, but that was still too raw and tender of an emotion for him to convey. "I'm not admirable at all" gets rephrased awkwardly, in a sort of stilted way. ]

...I'm not really admirable.

[ Even saying that much is embarrassing, but it's clear that Ciel is touched, since he picks up his mug once again, even though it's nearly empty by now, and he uses it to hide his face. ]

But I'll consider it.

[Oz doesn't say anything in response to the first part; verbally, anyway. He's got one of his dumb friendship smiles to give, but there's something a little melancholic in this one too, because that was a sad moement. Ciel is sad... THIS IS SAD. This entire day is starting off on a sad foot and Oz doesn't like that at all.]

Then that's that!

[The smile brightens, and his voice bounces back to its usual state of buoyant energy. There's nothing he can really do beyond gently nudging Ciel in a path that he hopes is ultimately a "good" one. The rest is out of his hands, but as long as he can at least make enough of an impact for Ciel to consider it, that's good enough for him.

But there's still a little more he can do, at least. He leans back in his chair now, tapping the palms of his hands against the edge of the table.]

Hey, did you hear? That sweets shop has a new flavor of cake pop that has the best reviews out of any of them yet, so I was going to stop by later today to have a look for myself. Do you want to come with me? My treat!

[ Ciel at least (unsurprisingly) perks up at the mention of sweets, but his expression becomes serious as he points across the table at Oz. ]

No. They're my treat today.

[ There's a tone there of "and that's that," though it's hard to tell where that's coming from, since Ciel doesn't often offer. It could be because he had wanted to get Oz to feel better, since he was clearly distracted himself, or it could be out of a kneejerk reaction to avoid what he feels is pity. It's really a little bit of both, but he also doesn't want to budge on this. ]

...They are good, though. [ ciel has not only heard, but has tried them ]

[Ciel....... WELL OZ WON'T ARGUE AT LEAST, but that's largely because he's busy puffing up over that last statement.]

What? You already went without me?!

[HE'S OFFENDED.]

[ Flatly: ] Yes? I'm on their mailing list, so they send me invitations to try their new products.

[ ciel has learned to use technology to further his fattydingdongs self ]

[THIS IS SO RUDE. HE HAS NEVER FELT SUCH KEEN BETRAYAL IN HIS LIFE. SLAMMING HIS HANDS DOWN ON THE TABLE AND LEANING FORWARD!!]

You signed up for their mailing list and didn't even tell me they had one?! Ciel!! I thought we were in it together! Food betrayal is unforgivable—!

[Betrayed by his own roommate.]

[ wow???? this is so rude and uncalled for?? It's easy to see Ciel's ire go from zero to roughly eighty-five in a snap, and he doesn't so much as move in response to Oz's dramatics. ]

I thought you were already on it. There's a flyer for it posted behind the counter, you imbecile.

[ how did oz miss this? we just don't know ]

[Because he's a moron and has eyes only for the display cases, probably.]

Since when?! I've never seen it there! You're making that up, aren't you?

[A SUSPICIOUS LOOK. Trying to hoard all the cakes to himself, huh?? OZ SEES YOU.]

How in the hell would I make it up if I know about the damned cakes?

[ Logic, Oz!! You're looking like more of a fattydingdongs than ciel does in this moment, and that's impressive. ]

The same way that I knew about the cakes without being signed up!

[He really is looking like more of a fattydingdongs here...]

[ Yeah, Ciel definitely gives Oz a Look for that comment with an incredulous look. ]

You're absolutely not allowed to tease me about sweets anymore.

[ that's the most roundabout way to call oz fat possible ]

[HUFFING. How very dare.]

I'm not the one subscribed to their mailing list! [...] Besides, everyone loves the desserts from that place so much. How could I not know when they come out with new things?

[He's literally taking people out for dessert like once every two days...]

[ ah ]

You would have if you had known about it! Shut up!!

[ So, clearly, Oz has a point. But so does Ciel. They're both morons here, basically. ]

You didn't know because it only just came out, idiot!

Edited 2015-02-07 02:33 (UTC)

[THIS IS DEFINITELY INCURABLE IDIOCY AT ITS FINEST.]

Well, I don't have to now, either! [Apparently he's expecting Ciel to be the cake alarm?!] I can't believe you.

Why are you acting like I did something wrong?!

[ Ciel huffs and puffs like the little loser he is... ]

You're just as capable of reading a sign as I am! You just didn't notice it!

I would have told you if I saw the sign first.

[NOW HE'S JUST BEING A PETULANT BRAT who may also be mildly embarrassed over the fact that he missed something so apparently glaringly obvious... Life is hard.]

I already told you, I thought you saw it!

[ He sits back in his chair, crossing his arms, since he sees that Oz is just a Moron, at least. ]

...Whatever. The point is, it's my treat, okay?

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject