[he can't help himself; a reaction like that is just automatic. even though it's spoken in a tone that's far less abrasive and chiding than he'd normally go for, the words come out without any thought at all.
it's hard to help, especially when everything feels so overwhelming. he's touched, but embarrassed, and heung soo moving to sit next to him adds to that feeling, though at the same time makes him relax a little. he understands what the implication is—nam soon understands everything heung soo is saying without a single word. the silent reassurance that he's not leaving, and that something as dumb and simple as his birthday shouldn't be forgotten. it's true, that nam soon doesn't feel he's deserving of it, but he also knows that heung soo never gave a shit about that anyway.
maybe that overwhelming feeling comes partially from the unconditional way heung soo manages to always be there, even when nam soon thinks he isn't. their reconciliation truly brought that upon them like it used to be, perhaps even more so after facing so many hardships without that support at all. and maybe it's foolish to feel overwhelmed when nam soon also knows he would do the same thing for heung soo without question. or maybe it just serves to prove that nam soon is a lot more messed up than he cares to admit. heung soo is definitely not the only one here who is embarrassed, if nothing else.
the duck seems to know when to quit being nosy at least, scrambling to get off of nam soon's lap and sit next to the dinosaur, leaving them to watch in awe as these two bastards (sort of) cozy up to one another. it's a bit miraculous that nam soon actually manages to keep his composure a lot better than he may have six months ago (and more so compared to when they were kids). he does sniff a little, but there aren't any tears; his hand his a little steadier now too as he finally loads the spoon up with that soup.
funny, how heung soo can have this sort of affect on him—annoying bastard. his head is swirling with all of these thoughts and feelings as he takes the first spoonful of soup; the first he's had in over three years now.]
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[he can't help himself; a reaction like that is just automatic. even though it's spoken in a tone that's far less abrasive and chiding than he'd normally go for, the words come out without any thought at all.
it's hard to help, especially when everything feels so overwhelming. he's touched, but embarrassed, and heung soo moving to sit next to him adds to that feeling, though at the same time makes him relax a little. he understands what the implication is—nam soon understands everything heung soo is saying without a single word. the silent reassurance that he's not leaving, and that something as dumb and simple as his birthday shouldn't be forgotten. it's true, that nam soon doesn't feel he's deserving of it, but he also knows that heung soo never gave a shit about that anyway.
maybe that overwhelming feeling comes partially from the unconditional way heung soo manages to always be there, even when nam soon thinks he isn't. their reconciliation truly brought that upon them like it used to be, perhaps even more so after facing so many hardships without that support at all. and maybe it's foolish to feel overwhelmed when nam soon also knows he would do the same thing for heung soo without question. or maybe it just serves to prove that nam soon is a lot more messed up than he cares to admit. heung soo is definitely not the only one here who is embarrassed, if nothing else.
the duck seems to know when to quit being nosy at least, scrambling to get off of nam soon's lap and sit next to the dinosaur, leaving them to watch in awe as these two bastards (sort of) cozy up to one another. it's a bit miraculous that nam soon actually manages to keep his composure a lot better than he may have six months ago (and more so compared to when they were kids). he does sniff a little, but there aren't any tears; his hand his a little steadier now too as he finally loads the spoon up with that soup.
funny, how heung soo can have this sort of affect on him—annoying bastard. his head is swirling with all of these thoughts and feelings as he takes the first spoonful of soup; the first he's had in over three years now.]