[he says it with a casual tone, not really thinking all that much of it. to nam soon, it's a simple truth—he didn't really have a reason to remember his birthday specifically beyond a passing thought. it wasn't anything to celebrate or make note of, there was nobody to share it with or remind him of it.
maybe from here on out, he won't forget. but as it stands, he stands by the notion that it's not so strange for him to forget. of course, he's grateful—happy, even—that heung soo remembers and goes this far for his sake. but still, it's a lot to get used to, and it definitely makes him feel a bit on the awkward side. it's a level of care and affection he's still not adjusted to after being alone, which is why it remains easier to deflect it. instead, he's just standing, hovering over the rice cooker as if that will make the process go faster.
(it won't, and he knows it, but this is awkward.)] You don't have to make a big deal out of it, you dumb bastard.
[even if he doesn't really mind at all. what is coping.]
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[he says it with a casual tone, not really thinking all that much of it. to nam soon, it's a simple truth—he didn't really have a reason to remember his birthday specifically beyond a passing thought. it wasn't anything to celebrate or make note of, there was nobody to share it with or remind him of it.
maybe from here on out, he won't forget. but as it stands, he stands by the notion that it's not so strange for him to forget. of course, he's grateful—happy, even—that heung soo remembers and goes this far for his sake. but still, it's a lot to get used to, and it definitely makes him feel a bit on the awkward side. it's a level of care and affection he's still not adjusted to after being alone, which is why it remains easier to deflect it. instead, he's just standing, hovering over the rice cooker as if that will make the process go faster.
(it won't, and he knows it, but this is awkward.)] You don't have to make a big deal out of it, you dumb bastard.
[even if he doesn't really mind at all. what is coping.]