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Who: Eiji (

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When: IC 8/10
Where: In the gardens, along the water
What: Eiji needs to think a bit. And eat. That would be good too.
Rating/Warning: None so far

Eiji had not enjoyed his last stint in ViViD. Locked in a threatening place, dead people that looked way too familiar, and of course the terrifying moment of being strapped to an operating table for experiments, again.

There was really only so long he could spend in his apartment, moping, especially when most of the appliances weren't working and he really needed to eat.

So, if you were Eiji, you'd go out, find a spot along the water, and start a fire to grill up some fish--fish that he'd had to buy, when he realized he had no idea what species in the water were sentient and/or poisonous. But an impromptu cookout was enough to help clear his mind for a little.

What also helped? Three new candroids--two Battas and one Kujaku, who were happily playing with Eiji's two Takos.

Also, if any of the candroids were celebrating the malfunctioning of the inferior CYbuddy oppressors? Well, Eiji was trying not to notice.

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Eiji nodded, rubbing lightly at a scar across his left palm.

"I know the feeling. It's really hard being ready for something when you don't know what's coming. You start to feel paranoid, and you hope no one notices you jumping at shadows."

"It is and especially when you want to help everyone. But you can't."

He said before swallowing that last word of his. He wanted to hope for the best but it was getting more difficult each day.

"And that's what makes it worse."

Eiji nodded. Oh, has he been there.

"It's hard. And sometimes, you lose hope. But what helped me was trying to focus on just what was in front of me. What could I do on my own?"

Admittedly, he'd over-focused on it, to the point that he gave up on considering any day past today.

He reached out his hand into the distance, as far as it went.

"That's as far as I can reach, just on my own. And it took me a while to realize that someone else can reach out just that far and take my hand. So that's twice as far."

This was oddly familiar to the talk he had with a certain lawyer many years back. When he was 7 years old and how he lost Patamon in the ViViD, he told him that he should trust others more.

It didn't mean he wasn't strong enough if he asked help from other people. And yet, why was it?

"Even if there's a chance that reaching out twice as far could end up hurting a lot more people than you think? It's...not as easy as you think."

"I know. But sometimes..."

Eiji stopped for a minute and looked at his hand. A scar there from something he hadn't been able to handle by himself, and now that he actually looked at it, it reminded him of a crack in a Medal that he'd tried hard to put back together.

"Once, I was caught up in something pretty bad. A friend of mine had betrayed me, and even though I tried to say I could handle it, I couldn't. I was so mad I couldn't think straight, and I was starting to do things that were hurting me, but no matter what my friends told me, I didn't listen."

Now, he looked back at Takeru with a sad smile. "But in the end, my friend came back. He didn't exactly say he was sorry, but I knew he was. And I was, for everything I'd said and done to him during the whole thing. But the both of us still had really big problems going on with ourselves, and neither one of us wanted to admit it to each other. He knew mine was bad, though, so he made himself worse off trying to help me. I still haven't forgiven myself for making him worry so much about me that it ended up hurting him."

Oh if Eiji knew how much he related to his story. While it wasn't quite the same, the idea of pushing himself to the point where he was hurting himself and others? That's the part where Takeru winced a little. After everything he been through, he knew he couldn't back down.

He just had to keep moving forward no matter what. There was no option for him to slow down or second guess himself. If he did, who knows what might happen. However, that didn't stop him from wondering should something go wrong. What was a boy like him suppose to do when so many friends were getting hurt? And especially here?

"I...I'm glad that you and your friend were able to make up and things were okay after everything that happened." Although, it would never be the same it still brought a smile to his face. "It makes me wonder if there might be a chance that things will be all right in the end."

"I can't promise it'll be soon. But it's like going on a journey--no matter how far you go, you have go to one step at a time."

He took out his Cerevice and tapped out his contact information.

"Here. If you ever need to find me for any reason."

That was rather surprising. As he stared at Eiji's CereVice, all Takeru could do was just burst out laughing. He didn't mean to be rude but when he really thought about it?

"You really are kind, aren't you Eiji-san? Most people wouldn't offer such a thing to a stranger, you know!"

Eiji smiled back.

"It's just kind of how I am. I can't not try to help, you know?"

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